Something is missing

I have a feeling like there's something missing during X'mas Eve. Hmmm.

Holidays Coming Up

Finally, I've finished all role-plays, assignment and projects for this term. But I still need to work on my next term project during my holidays. There's no break for me I should say. I will be quite busy with rehearsals as concerts are coming up. Looking forward to it. I shall post the details up here soon.

Bad day today, I lost my Ez-link card. I have no idea why I lose things in school. Maybe I'm too careless and doesn't take good care of my belongings. Hopefully a good person will find the Ez-link and return it to me. If there's no news of the Ez-link, I guess I have to make a new one which cost around $20++ bucks (waste of money). Hoping hoping hoping.

-Sometimes, I felt that I'm so paranoid

I'm glad

Those small little things, made me glad. I appreciate it.

Thanks EVERYONE!

Exhausted

I'm just too tired to blog. Goodnight/morning everyone.

The moment I've been waiting for

A year older for me today. The moment I've been waiting for. Thanks to those who wished me. I appreciate it

You've got a friend in me

Basically, my stress mode has just started. And the stress mode is going to last till end of this year. Hopefully.

"YAY!-ness."

-If you should ever find someone new,
I know he better be good to you
Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there

No sleep, amazing.

Wow, I've just came back from having fun. It's been 24hours with no sleep. And somehow I feel energetic, maybe for just a short period of time. I'm still going out later. Let's see how long I can endure another day without sleep. Zombie walking down the streets, WATCH OUT EVERYONE! haha! CRAP.

It's been only 3 weeks since Semester 2 started. And I must say that I really need to buck up in class and listen to the lecturer with lots and lots and lots of empathy as well as being punctual. It's only been 3 weeks and I must say my life has been a roller coaster. Oh well, hopefully things will run smoothly.

Shagged

Another week ahead and I'm so exhausted by the timetable as everyday start either 8am or 9am. I have not been getting enough sleep lately. I shall enjoy my short sleep now. BOOOOMZZZ!

Mask

It's time for some of them to take off their masks and show their real face.

A Poetry

Some clouds have passed over

Which have caused me to tremble

And have disturbed my nostalgia.

I remember when in a silence

You were caressing my soul

And your eyes burned in mine.

The evenings passed

Without sunset,

We only realised that we were dying

Little by little

Slowly,

We were suffering.

And after,

When the days pass,

And nothing is left,

And when our brow is wrinkled

And your soul is calloused,

When the days work of plowing

Becomes infinite

And your smile has become a marrtyr,

Rember that which was so simple,

And so pure,

When hand in hand we searched for smething eternal,

Intensely feeling

At that instance;

living.

500 Days of Summer

Since holidays are ending and school is starting soon, I decided to catch a movie with some friends. Watched "500 DAYS OF SUMMER". Actually wanted to watch "DARAH" but my bad, can only catch at the movie at certain cineplex only. Although it wasn't the movie that I wanted to watch, but it's really worth watching.

The movie somehow made me realise that no matter how much you love that person, doesn't mean that she's the right one for you. Easier said, if it's meant to be then it's meant to be. I shall not spoil the movie by telling you guys what happened in the movie. Go WATCH! Ratings: 4.5/5

Life is like a GAME

Watching certain things happen around me and affects a lot of people an eye opener.
Sometimes I feel scared to try new things because of the consequences. But people say you need to be confident and try it out and see how it goes. After you tried, maybe it turns out bad and you can’t run away from it. Even if you escaped from it, you will still remember what's your mistake and maybe be traumatizing. But if it turns out well, it can be an achievement and will boost your confidence level up and saying to yourself that I CAN DO IT! But whatever it is, no matter how many times we’ve fall, keep trying. Again and again. Even though you know it’s impossible, but there’s a way that you could get up.

I remembered that a teacher told me life is like a game, if you’re smart enough there’s guides/cheat codes for you to look through to help you. My point is that, no matter what problems you have, there’s always a “CHEAT CODE” which is the solution to each problem. There are tons of options you can think off. So, always remember that life is like a game, there’s always a “CHEAT CODE” to help you out. Just that you need to find the right "CHEAT CODE".

Without them, I won't be here.

If you remember him, he will remember you

If send your prayers to him and at the same time pursue it,
Hopefully what you asked for will come true.

Sometimes, you get more satisfaction than you need.
Insyallah.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2009

I would like to wish all Muslims Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

I beg for forgiveness for any of my wrong doings be it with actions or words.

I apologies if I ever hurt your feelings for any of you who are reading my blog.

Let us throw all those bad memories and welcome the good memories.

Hope that you enjoy yourself with your loved ones.

I may not show it by typing it out everything here.

But, I'm sincere with my apologies.

Have a great Hari Raya Aidilfitiri!

Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

Time Passes

I neither sleep nor rest

Watching how the time

Consumes me

Day after day

more and more.

I do not want to rest my aching body

So that not one second

Will escape from it,

With each second it intensifies

This death inside.

Sometimes

I stop,

I do not breathe,

I force the silence

Trying to see if the seconds

Also stop.

Time

is fast,

it spends us

it engulfs us

it erodes our lives.

It is happening.

And a the second of death

Death is second.

Iftar with KBBG

Here are some pictures from the outing of "IFTAR". If you guys wonder what "IFTAR" means, it bring all Muslims to break fast together and at the same time interacting with each other. We also celebrated the Izzat's impromptu birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIK ZAT!

Finally, exams has ended. I'm actually curious and scared to hear about my grades for this Semester. Hope it will be "fine". And now I'm having a short break till the new Semester resume. Can't believe that I'm half way through the year already. It feels like just yesterday I started my term.

Been working to earn some money before Hari Raya . I've come to realise that we've been fasting for like almost a month already. The adrenaline rush feels good.

This whole month was packed and I managed clear everything up. A few nice and bad things happened. The "SPANISH FANTASIA" concert was great. Enjoyed myself with the PhilharmonicWinds. Hope to perform another concert with them again.

I guess I shall end my post here for today.

End of 1st Semester

One more paper to go,
And that's it for my 1st Semester exams.
All the best to me.

Michael Jackson Dance Tribute - Coolshit

Exams Coming

I won't be updating my blog till my exams are over. 1 more week left for me to revise before the exams, great. I need more time. My time is running out

Last Lap

What I really need right now is motivation to push myself for the last lap. Maybe, there's no one to push me up except myself. If that's how it should be, then I'm going to try to do anything just to pull through. God, give me the strength to pull through this.

Forgive me if I st-stutter from all the clutters in my head

Concert This September

The Philharmonic Winds Presents : Spanish Fantasia!

Date: 6 September 2009
Time: 7.30 pm
Venue: Esplanade Concert Hall
Tix: $15, $20, $25, $35, $50 available at all SISTIC authorised agents
(10% student discount)

My Time is Running Out

Everything is passing by me so quickly and I've not yet trying to move away from it

I'm just so sick and tired of everything..

Mini Sax Recital

It was my first mini recital last Sunday, and I must say that I really enjoyed myself performing. With the short time given to perform, yet I somehow managed to pull through. And I'm proud of myself. Many thanks to Dan, Dr. Goh and friends. It's an eye-opener recital for me as it kept me thinking about the future on whether I would take music as my career or just a hobby. Still in dilemma

This past few weeks has been a roller coaster ride for me, many things happened. Found a job, was great. School has been a rush, so many things to do with little time given. Exams are coming soon, BEV is killing me as I don't even understand what they have gone through for the past few weeks while I was away. It's time to gear up.

If life is as simple as you want it to be, then life would be meaningless

WMC 2009 - Holland

Holland was GREAT! The trip was worth it. I didn’t bring a camera to the trip, so I couldn’t really show you most of the beautiful sceneries there. I love the weather there, so cooling. It makes me feel very calm. Couldn’t think of anything that’s bothering me.

The people there are friendly too. I just couldn't explain how overwhelming the experience was. Basically I enjoyed making music in other people’s country. The music culture there is amazing! Hopefully I would be able to come to Europe again in the next WMC which is in 4 years time. Enjoy the pictures.

Waking up every morning reminding myself that this is a dream

Everybody's Changing

What a cold night, feel so devastated, dissapointed and it's full of shit. However, I have no regrets in what I've done. Thank You for the joy that you brought in my life. And it has finally come to this...

Okay guys, I'm heading off to the airport now. I will come back in 10 days time. So do take good care of yourself readers. Till then, I'm going to have a GREAT TIME there! WOOO! BYE!

Love is something that you need,
it's just like water to the trees
only want it more and more.

Holland, HERE I COME! :D

18 hours to go before I leave for my flight to HOLLAND!. Take care readers. :D

Hello, Goodbye is all she said
But, she won't seem to leave my head

A Miracle Happened

Today was a bad day, but I found a saviour in my life and he makes my day much better. I don't know how I could be so careless and left my thumb drive which filled with projects that I need to hand up by this week. Luckily there's this nursing student who saved my life. I thought I lost all my hope and I'm gonna re-do my projects all over again. But luckily, god wasn't so cruel and ask my saviour to pass thumb drive to me. I'm thankful that he didn't keep it for himself. And thanks Lylie for the help to look for my thumb drive too. I appreciate it. Thank you very much nursing guy and Lylie.

Tomorrow's the day when I'm going to have a big relief because I'm handing up last project tomorrow before I'm gone next week. So, I'm glad. Phew. 3 more days to go, the thought of me packing up my luggage just makes me lazy. I wish I could just go there without bringing any luggage and bring my own new luggage from there which contains lot's of new things.

I didn't know I could spend my time talking lots of nonsense to a friend of mine. Basically, lots and lots of lame jokes. It's good to spend your time talking nonsense at times, get your mind off stressful things. Anyway, I still have no idea what's the feeling like staying in Europe for 10 days. Wish me luck!

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood, I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room. I would

Sick & Tired

Phew, just got back from rehearsals, what a tiring day. First thing is that I'm kinda worried for my upcoming recital right after I come back from Holland. I'm still in progress of making all the 3 movements better. Hopefully things will be okay by the time I'm back in Singapore. Today was the 2nd last rehearsal before heading off to Holland. And I must say I'm quite excited about it. 4 more days for to go.

Did my CMS role play today, it was impromptu, but Leeyan and myself managed to "finished" it off well. It's fun doing role play with her as I can always tease her. Wahah! I'm glad that's out of the way, so I'm left with BEV project which I'm going to finish it later.

Things hasn't been going out well for me lately, I have no idea why. Maybe I need to gain back my confidence in doing things. Sometimes, thinking about it too much makes it feel worst. I need something to do to get my mind off these issues. I need 24hrs of gaming! Hah! Then maybe I can remove everything in my mind.

4 more days to go, and I really hate packing up my luggage. Grr. Till then.

You always want what you can't have
But, I've got to try

What a Blast

MusArt concert was today, and I'm so tired. Great concert indeed! But I enjoyed myself playing with them. Gonna fly off to Netherlands next week and I'm gonna miss school for 10 days. I have no idea how I'm gonna catch up with all the school work that has been covered. And I have to submit my projects by this week if it's possible. Role play is this Wednesday, and I haven't even take a look at my script yet. Everything must be memorise and it's 3 pages long. Damn it.

I'm still wondering whether I'm gonna get sick and tired of the place there when I'm in Europe for 10 days. Heck care, going to enjoy myself there like there's no tomorrow. I'm feeling excited and worried at the same time. Have no idea why I'm feeling uneasy when I know I'm going to enjoy myself and do lots of music making there.

See what happens when you get very bored in class and you have nothing better to do.

And I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a waterbed

Concert This Week

DECADE: CELEBRATE 10 YEARS OF MUSIC MAKING WITH MUS'ART WIND ORCHESTRA

BY
Esplanade

VENUE / TIME/DATE
19th July, Sunday, Esplanade Concert Hall, 5.00pm

ADMISSION
Standard: $15
Students, NSF & Senior Citizens: $12
Available from all SISTIC outlets

CONDUCTOR
Mdm Tan Soh Hwa & Mr Wilson Ong Chok Yen

PROGRAMME
Ireland: Of Legend & Lore | Robert W. Smith
Ocean Deep & Memories | arr. Maj Tonni Wei
Titanic Medley | James Horner, arr. Takashi Hoshide
Highlights From The Musical: Phantom of The Opera | Andrew Lloyd Webber, arr. Johan De Meij
"GR" Selections for Concert Band | Masamicz Amano
Atmospheres | John Golland
The Butterfly Lovers: For Erhu & Wind Band | Hardy Mertens, Erhu Soloist: Miss Khoo Hui Ling

I've finally come to this
For better or worst
Thinking, where did I go wrong?
Maybe, I shouldn't have

But I have no regrets
Because sincerity is all I have
And I have nothing to lose

I guess this is the end
But, there were never a beggining
Maybe this is how it should be

Sooner or later, I need to know the answer
I have to face it
Faith is what I need right now

For you I will

Lady, would you save me?

It's Saturday, and it feels just like any other day. I'm feeling invulnerable from this "enjoyable" weekends. I used to have adrenaline rush tingling when it comes to weekends. But now, it's totally different. Maybe it's because how I spend my time on weekends has changed?.

I need to finish up my BEV Project which is due this Monday. Oh my, I have no idea on how to do the stupid analysis part. See, this is what you get when you spend you 3 weeks of holidays not finishing up your school projects. Lesson to be learnt. Rush, rush, rush.

Currently, I'm engrossed with my new "toy". Everyday when I got home, first thing to do is to play with my "toy". It's my new guitar which Izzat bought for me as an advance birthday gift. I've always brag about having a guitar, and now he got for me. Thanks Zat! But, must pay him back half price. Thanks eh. Currently learning some chords and some songs.

It's going to be a long day tomorrow, having rehearsals from afternoon all the way till night. My brain gonna be dead after that. But it's all worth it.

I'm so glad that I found you

This Sickness Is Killing Me

I've been sick for the past few days. Really, really sick. I just couldn't do anything with much focus. Had rehearsal yesterday, and I couldn't really concentrate. Body's aching, fever and slightly breathless. I'm lucky to found a seat in the train from Jurong East all the way to Bedok. Reached home, took some medication and made myself a pack of ice to put on my forehead. Thank god that my fever is much better.

School timing was all over the place this week. No BEV this week and CMS was canceled for some days. For POA, I couldn't' understand what the new topic is all about. Makes my head go right round and round. Hah!

Too many things to do, took lesson with Dan yesterday. It was fun trying out standard repertoire for classical saxophone. Played some scales, did some embouchure exercises. A good session with him this week. The song from Michael Jackson is stuck in my head. Title: "You are not alone"


10 days, I wonder how long will it be? Hmm.

You are not alone, for I am here with you
Though you're far away, for I am here to stay

My Secretive Soul

The last week of holidays are coming to an end. Today is the last day of the holidays week. Will be having rehearsals later, looking forward to it. I've gone through lots of things this week. A mixture of bitter-sweet experience. Overall, it's enjoyable. Experiencing the job of travelling around Singapore to meet up with different types of people. And also experiencing different type of standards for a performance with the same set of songs again and again was challenging. Getting to know friends around me slightly a little more was also a great experience. Especially Leeyan, those 5 days working together with you was great!. So basically, I've gone through lots of things within a week.

School is starting this Monday and I still have not yet started on the projects and assignments. Gonna rush and finish everything up. Not looking forward to school actually, not yet sober from my holidays mood.

I'm starting to assume things which I'm not sure whether it's true or not. But it's best not to assume things too much as things will get worst. Maybe it's just me, carry on carry on.

Someday I might have the strength to unfold

It's Worth It

Had fun last night celebrating birthday.
Tomorrow is the last day of work and it's also the last Friday for this term of holidays. Damn.

Been waking up very early everyday, I must say working is much more tiring then schooling. I should study as long as I can before working for the rest of my life. For the past 4 days, I enjoyed myself especially with my fickle minded friend Leeyan. For the past 4 days, we've been going to Orchard again and again. So next time, if I got lost, it won't be a problem to me.

I guess I've said what I want to say in this post

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JOANNE! (:

Beautiful Sunday 2009

Beautiful Sunday was a blast. Overall performance was good but there's still room for improvements. A great sense of gratitude from me to all those who came for the concert. Thank you very much, I appreciate it. The concert hall almost came to a full house. Another great performance at the Esplanade. A sense of achievement when you're standing on stage and hearing the applause by the audiences and appreciating your muysic. Once again, thank you all for those who came. You know who you are! Hah!

Today was the first day of work. Glad to say that first day of work was fun. Especially when I have my talkative yet fun classmate with me exploring the whole Singapore. Jumping from places to places. Meeting new people and adapting to new environment around you is great. Left with 4 more days to go and I'll be done with this job. It's a new experience I should say.

This week is definitely a week to really look forward to. Hope it turns out well. Guess I shall end it here for now.

Remenber how we laughed until we cried
At the most stupid things like we were so high

Concert This Week

Beautiful Sunday : Philharmonic Youth Winds

Venue: Esplanade Concert Hall
Date: 28th June 2009 (Sunday)
Time: 3pm - 4pm
Admission : FREE!!

Do come down with your family and friends this Sunday for great music! And most importantly, it's FREE! See ya all there!

An Evening at Macdonalds

Basically, I did nothing today. Woke up in the afternoon around 12pm. What a great life I have. Hah! Later in the evening met up with Nad and Noi to look for some stuffs. Had a nice chat with both of them. It's been a while since I met up with my psychotic friends. Took some pictures together. So here it is.

Time is running out, need to finish up all my tasks by this week.

Where did I go wrong?

Another Week Comes By

Well, today is Monday and it's the first day of the week. 1 week of holidays are gone and 2 weeks left for me to enjoy myself. I've lots of things to do this week and I need to get it all done ASAP. BEV Project not yet started as I can't be bothered to do it yet. hah! But will work on it anytime soon. I'm looking forward to this week as I will be having my concert this Sunday. Hopefully, the concert hall gonna be a full house.


These pictures were taken a few days back, a random trip to IKEA. And also I wanted to look for some things there. But I couldn't find what I wanted. So we took some pictures. Look through the whole IKEA. Got hungry, so we decided to get IKEA hot dogs which are very cheap. It's $1 only!. Whoo. Killer bohz. It was delicious. I was so hungry that I got 2 of those. Wahah! Sorry, what do you expect when I'm really hungry?.

Looking forward to day coming by, hopefully I would be able to finish all the tasks that needed to be done this week. Till then. Chao.

Close your eyes, dry your tears
Cause when nothing, seems clear
You'll be safe here

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Here I am waiting for time to pass by
Thinking what's there for me to look foward to
Feeling excited, nervous and inquistive at the same time

Perhaps time will be my companion for now
Make me think of what's good and what's not for me

Tick tock tick tock
Still waiting for time to pass by
Again and again and again
A glimpse of the calender everyday
Asking myself, is it here already? May I proceed?

Maybe not just yet, too many things left unsaid
Let it be and we'll see
Please let not this be the last chance for me

Photo Edit by Faizal

Thanks for the picture edit bro! CHEERS! :D

Pathetic

I'm feeling pathetic, idiotic and stupid. Don't know what's wrong with me. Just angry with myself. Shit shit shit. I still can't find the reason why I'm feeling like this. Just need to calm myself down now. F****, I hate this. Get over it man.

Great, things are getting so much better for me now.

Whatever.

Again and again and again

Okay, I know I shouldn't have go out today because I'm broke. But I promised Khai to catch a movie today. Woke up early in the morning and took a bath. Got myself ready to meet Fauzi and headed off to Zizi's place to borrow his bow tie long sleeve shirt for next week performance. Hang out at his house and played his PS3. I was amazed by the graphics, especially plus the HD Tv. I must say he's one lucky guy. It's been a while since I had a nice chat with him. He's been busy with his national service. So he told me what it's like there and all the great things that happened to him while serving the nation. Sounds interesting. Maybe I should go national service now? haha! just kidding.


Had lunch, then head down to EhuB The Cathay to catch "Ghost of Girlfriends Past". I must say that this movie was great. But not to the extend that it can really give a big impact to someone. Maybe at some points I guess. Should catch this movie, it's great! Worth watching. I'll rate this movie 6.5/10.

After the movie, make my way home as I was really starving and I don't want to spend my money. So might as well not spend money on food outside and grab a bite at home for FREE. Later in the evening, Fauzi picked some of us up to have dinner. Drove to Mustafa Centre to have dinner plus bought his earpiece. And here I am.

What a tiring day. Need job job job job. Pfft.

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

My Immortal

For the past 2 days, I've been enjoying myself. Basically, planning some activities for each day really helps. Rather than doing nothing and rot at home. Trying to do something useful with all the time that I have and make the best out of it.

I really need a job for myself, the job that I talked about in my recent post only starts on 29th. I need a part-time job for a few weeks before I resume school. Any recommendations anyone? Currently I'm broke, should not go out so often from now on. Or maybe I should bring my own lunch bag for myself when I'm hungry outside.

As you can see from this picture, I'm really enjoying my holidays. hah!

Looking forward to weeks coming by as I will be packed with performances and rehearsals. And part of my plans are to finish my BEV project plus POA assignments. Hopefully I would be able to finish everything before school resume.

There's just too much that time cannot erase

It's not a 1, it's a 2 now. hah.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY KHAIRUL!

Wish you all the best in your future endeavours and live life to the fullest. Best of luck to you bro!

Ps: You owe me big time for posting your only picture in one post. hah! Kidding.

Just in time to be taken over

Holidays are here, tick tock tick tock. My holidays are packed. Need to go back to school for some activities and make up lesson. It's not so bad after all. But POA assignments are the killer. It's like 5 questions for each set. And I have 5 sets. How am I going to finish all that? Take it slow I guess. Found a job, but still need to go for training. Feel kind of nervous and excited at the same time. But whatever it is, it's a new experience.

It's already middle of the year, and I'm kinda lost on what's happening around me. Some of my friends left for National Service. Wish them all the best in there. Feels like yesterday was first day of 2009. People will shout HAPPY NEW YEAR!. And now it's already June. The next thing you know, it's already September. Then it's November. Looking forward to that month. Hah!

Dan is coming back somewhere in July to August. Glad that he's coming back to visit Singapore. It's been a while since I met him, have some questions on some music related stuffs. Thinking of taking lessons, but just couldn't find the time and money. Just have a coffee with him and have a nice chat would be great.

It's cold tonight, breeze around me just calms myself. Feeling kinda nostalgic about it, I'm enjoying all the solitude I can have tonight, just random.

What a tiring day, and I still have doubts in my mind. A sense of melancholy and a pinch of joy on how I should describe today. Looking forward to days coming by and just let nature do it's magic.

Let's put on sunscreen on rainy days...

A thought came by

Basically, friendship is the most important thing in this world. If there's no friendship, then there's no point living in this world. Probably you'll end up doing everything alone by yourself. Friendship is the most beautiful thing that can happen to one's life.

It brings you happiness, love and warmness in your heart. To build a strong friendship is difficult as it takes days, months or even years. A lifetime I should . However, to destroy it? Take seconds.


A strong friendship helps you to understand each other better. What do they like? What do they do? What they like and dislike?. To know everything in that person him/herself simply takes a lifetime. I'm glad that friendship is around me.

Basically, these people around you everyday are your friends too. They are strangers, but they are friends whom you haven't meet yet. So, let's just forgive and forget and create more friendships around you. But remember, don't make bad friendships.

I'm writing again, this letters to you

Thousands of words in my mind

To find the right words to describe you is tough enough

Wondering why it's tough everytime

When I'm making up my mind

Maybe I'm scared

Too scared to know the answers and the ending

Feeling traumatised

As history may repeat itself

And here I am again, back to square one

Searching and searching

But turns out, I've found nothing

Day by day

I was led astray

Thinking why has it to be this way?

All I could see is silhouette of you

Kept hanging around in my mind

Asking myself, why she's here

Playing around with me
Or just want to be here

Let's switch off these chandelier

And pretend that nothing was here

Last Few Days Before Serving The Nation

29/5/09

Got up early in the morning, prepared myself for SW. Reached school but lesson was canceled due to insufficient people to start the lesson. Felt so pathetic as I woke up early in the morning and traveled to school and found out that lesson is canceled. What a "great" morning. Ate brunch at Cafe 2. Decided to went home as there's no lessons on Friday besides SW. Later in the evening, met the guys up as the were fishing at Bedok Reservoir. Some of the guys are going to serve the nation, so we'll be spending more time together before they become refugees in the jungle. Hah! Full of laughter at the floating platform of Bedok Reservoir. They caught a few fishes. So it wasn't that bad?. It's better than nothing. Was kinda hungry, so followed Ruz to his house and off we go for supper. Reached home at around 1 am and off to bed.

30/5/09

Woke up early again, prepared myself for OBOG practice. Met up with Fidah and YL. And off we go to Peirce for practice. Reached there, took out instrument and do some warm ups. Music is the best medicine for one's heart. Felt better after brushing up my skills. Sightread a few scores for the upcoming POP in June. After practice, went for lunch and after that make our way to EhuB with YL to meet the Kboys and Nina. Played arcade, and some of us decided to go home. Followed Wayne to cut his hair BOTAK as he will be serving the nation soon. HAH!. Looks good on him. It was raining that evening and it just makes my day. Wayne send me home and stayed home the whole night.

31/5/09

This was the 3rd day I woke early in the morning, a trip to Malaysia to my Aunt's Kampong. The trip was fun, tiring and memorable. Went to Mt. Gunung Ledang, enjoyed the refreshing water coming down from the mountains. Reached to my Aunt's kampong stayed there for a few hours. The scenery was beautiful, it calms you down and there's nothing for you to worry there. A sense of peacefulness and serenity. After a tiring day, make our way back to Singapore and it totally pissed me off as the immigration was horrendous. Waited for the jam to clear for like around 45 minutes. A sigh of relief when the sign says SINGAPORE. Reached home at 2 30 am and it's like school the next day.

I'm gonna end my post here now. Tired, and too many thoughts in my mind. Exams and assignments need to be done. Let's finish this once and for all.

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope

These thoughts are killing me

Day by day
Fears kept coming again and again

Cause I'm afraid to know the answers
Wondering how could I live this life again
Everybody's changing everyday
And why am I still here again?

Oh god, please help me
Forgive me from all the sweetest sins
I'm begging you please

Let me meet you tonight
And we'll have a good last night

I'm a thousand miles away
So please just hang in there
Someday things will be fine
We'll make up for last time

So let's stop this masquerade
And wear a smile for me