These thoughts are killing me

Day by day
Fears kept coming again and again

Cause I'm afraid to know the answers
Wondering how could I live this life again
Everybody's changing everyday
And why am I still here again?

Oh god, please help me
Forgive me from all the sweetest sins
I'm begging you please

Let me meet you tonight
And we'll have a good last night

I'm a thousand miles away
So please just hang in there
Someday things will be fine
We'll make up for last time

So let's stop this masquerade
And wear a smile for me

Another Bday Celebration

Yesterday, the BGKB planned to give Fidah a surprise party as her birthday is today. So yesterday, went to Fauzi's house in the afternoon to prepare some food before we head down to Bedok Reservoir floating platform. Didn't know KBoys can do quite well in the kitchen preparing food, especially OGY. Hah! Got potential eh OGY. After we finished preparing, head down to the floating platform.








I should say the decorations was nicely done, the balloons, candles and the table setting was awesome. The decorations and setting looks like a guy going to propose to a girl. I should say it's the overall view is very "Romantic". I am glad that the surprise was a successful one even though we had our dinner very late as we were waiting for the birthday girl. All the laughing, singing plus games made everyone my day. My apologies as I can't make it to another celebration which I really want to attend, but I'm glad they enjoyed themselves.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY RAFIDAH!






24/5/09
Woke up early in the morning unwillingly, and get ready to go to school for CIP. It's a Family Day event and the Prime Minister, Mr Goh, was the Guest of Honour. Was assigned all the tasks equally, I took care of bunch of young and adorable kids at the age of 4. Uber cuteness. It was tiring and at the same time rewarding as a volunteer. I shall keep this wonderful experience with me. Went for lunch with AA peeps at Century Square then head down to Bugis with Noi, Hidayah and Syidiah. They wanna look for some things. I can't stand the crowd at Bugis Street. So I decided to wait for them somewhere less crowded while they look for their stuff. Got their things, hang out for a while and I went home as I was too tired.

POA Exam is in like 3 days. OMG! Cross fingers that I won't be careless on that day itself. Mathematics = Carelessness. I've yet to study BEV. Gonna start my revision soon. Till then.

I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the ending

Back to Square One

Today was another day in school, got back my POA test. Didn't really do well as I was quite careless. Another day with Mr Chong filled with CONFUSION in my brain and wondering what he's trying to say. Another day with Mr Hari filled with his jokes and sarcasm. Hah! Another day filled with Mdm Siti's naggings and agitation for POA.

Exams are coming soon!. Next week is POA CA1, must start revising. As for BEV, I still need to make out some notes. Hopefully I will pull through all of this soon. Few more weeks till holidays, I'm looking forward in the month of June. June is going to be hectic as I will be having performances, class outing and celebration of birthdays.



I miss the old days when
I played with NAFA Jazz Orchestra, the musicians there, the music, everything I miss it. Wish I could turn back time. Oh well, just gonna post up a picture of the saxophone section in the Jazz Orchestra. Till then.

So hold your head up girl,
And wear a smile for me

An Evening at The Botanical Gardens

Oh well, another performance at the Botanic Gardens on Sunday. After the performance, met my peeps to watch SSO's performance. It turns out to be great. Enjoyed the SSO performance, especially the 1812 Overture. It was definitely amazing. The brassy section was great. Enjoyed the view there while watching the whole SSO performance. The crowd was kinda big. But still, I'm looking forward to the Beautiful Sunday at the Esplanade this JUNE. Sorry, I have no pictures to upload here because didn't take any.

Monday "BOOS" for everyone. School today was quite bad because CA was angry with the class and he said if things should carry on as it is, he will withdraw himself from the class. And I definitely don't want that to happen. Things are better as it is now. And I'm happy with it. Hopefully the class gonna change for the better.

Tests are coming up and gonna study, study, study.

Can't Be Bothered

I've finally have come to this, and I can't be bothered.

Even pretty can be seen by the blind

Be Thankful

It's sad to see someone who is fortunate enough to live in this world normally, and brag about how they hate their life so much. While those who are not so fortunate, GOD gave them something less when they are born in this world. They maybe blind, mute or paralyzed. Yet they do still live life to the fullest and try their best to make life a meaningful one.


GOD is fair enough to give people their own STRENGTH and WEAKNESSES, as humans we should be thankful that we have this life to look forward to. Try to think that everyday, just makes you stronger and you know that you wont repeat the same mistakes. It's better than nothing. Of course we all do have our own problems, but when you think that your life is such a dreadful one, think again, because there are others who are much worst. Be thankful with what you have, I'm not trying to be a hypocrite and tell people out there that there's more to life when I myself brag about my own life.

The reason I blog about this is because few days back, I saw this teenager and his dad. The teenager wasn't that fortunate because he has some problems in walking properly. So, his dad guided him through. Even though it takes a long time to wait for the teenager to take a step, his dad waited patiently.

And I always hear people brag about life, and they are born as normal humans with hands, legs and all the five senses.
So, are we the "fortunate" ones just asking too much?

LOVE is Cruel

It's amazing how LOVE can make you do cruel things. Just been wondering to myself, watching couples give and take LOVE, then suddenly they broke up. You can't stop thinking of him, and leave everything in the world behind but him. And the next thing you want is to get rid of him out of your mind. Uploading all his photos in your blog and create albums just for the both of you with the smile on your face. All the happy thoughts are in those albums. And the next thing you know, you will be deleting, burning all those albums that cause you all the sadness in your life.

LOVE can change people in seconds, it affects you so much that you would do anything for him. Some people would even find a new partner just to forget him and move on with life. But what's the point? You're living in this world filled with denial. Saying "I love you" take seconds, but to show it, takes a lifetime.

Sad isn't it? To see people around you change just because LOVE affects them so much. It can be a positive and negative changes. Your friend spend lesser time with you each day as he's too busy with LOVE. But when this LOVE is gone, they came back to seek for your advice or help.

Now, don't you think LOVE is cruel?

ITE Graduation 2009

I enjoyed myself, even though it's been just a year with you guys. Thanks for making my year a great one! I really appreciate it.

I'll go wherever you will go

It's Easier Said Than Done

Actions speaks louder than words.
Does my actions speak louder or my words?
No doubt, I sometimes do think that life sucks.
Thinking about it again, life can be a meaningful one too.
It's just a matter of what you want in life and how u want to achieve it.

Most people do have problems in their life.
There's two type of people in this world.
Those who thinks that life is miserable and always be.
And those who thinks that life is the greatest thing that GOD gave to them.

Those who thinks that their lives are miserable,
Can't possibly be able to solve their problems.
It's because they just brag about it and do nothing.
As time goes by, things got worst. At that point of time, they just feel life is useless.
They will that's the point of time in life where they give up.

People who thinks that there's more to life,
Are people who find their ways to get rid of problems.
They try not to brag too much about it and instead,
Solving those problems and find the key to "happiness".

Someone told me, there's no such thing as "happiness" in life.
But it really depends how you find "happiness".
If you find your "happiness", then you will think that life is meaningful.

So, are you just going to brag about life and do nothing till it get worst?
Or are you going to do something about it and make your life better?