Worried

Spend my whole day rehearsing with JJC for tomorrow's show and also with OBOG. Well basically I don't feel that I'm prepared for tomorrow's show. It's because that I'm not prepared to fill in the the scales that I need to play. Well gonna try doing it. That's one thing to be worry about.

Got home today and mom talked to me about grandma. She's been very sick. And just now the ambulance took her to the hospital to have an X-ray. She's has alot of water inside her liver. I just feel so worried about her. She's the only grandma that I left with. And sad to say that I have to see her that way. She even fell in the toilet quite a number of times. I really miss her being strong and happy. But, the only thing that I can do is to say some prayers for her. God, please give her the strength to be strong and healthy. I can't bare to lose another my love ones.

Exams is next week and I still haven't study for my CRN. Argh! What am I gonna do? Everytime I keep saying to myself to revise but in the end, I don't even make the effort to do it. Cmon Idham, this is your responsibility and it's your choice. Don't make stupid mistakes that you make in the past. Everything that happened in my life has always been my choice. Firstly, it's my choice to study hard and maybe if I do that, I can even end up in Poly now. But life has to move on. Just make the future the best and let the past be the past.

Oh God, please have mercy....