Paint Brush

I keep my paint brush with me
Wherever I may go,
In case I need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show.
I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do - that
You might laugh or say mean things.
I'm afraid I might lose you.

I'd like to remove all my paint coats
To show you the real, true me,
But i want you to try to understand,
I need you to accept what you see.
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
I'll strip off all my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see,
You are my friend, pure as gold.

24/2/07

hello people..today was band exchange..it ended okay...not too bad i should say...bedok north performed also cant say that well but some of the parts are convincing...the exchange was not bad..had exchange with FTP and St Gabriel. Tmr there's philyouth practice..playin tenor for the first time there..sounds exciting..my bro's room is in a big mess now..i cant stand it..i cant wait for my brothers to get married..so that i can take over the room..all to myself..wooohoo!..cool!..

This week passed so fast that it was like a blink of an eye..i think it's because of the CNY holidays. i'm really lookin forward to these past few weeks..there will be camps, night practice..wooooo!..pure coolness!...hope that the band can really work hard and do it once and for all for SYF!..all the best BNSS Symphonic Band..i miss my old days when i was in sec1..lol! that's enough for this post right now.. see u guys.. END

It ends tonight!

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

17/1/07

Currently feeling mood less..i have been rotting at home today..basically slacking..i suppose that someone will ask me out but in the end there was but i'm not in the mood to go out..get to know some friend on msn. Talked to her for awhile. She's quite cool. Sundays are boring but luckily there's practice for me..too bad tomorrow there's no Phil Youth. I'm craving for Mac Cafe huhu..especially the caramel yummy..woa..this past few days been eating quite alot at home..standard!...because there's nothing to do at home except eat,sleep and play. tsk3..idham oh idham tak boleh tahan loh..okay lah aku gila alr..there's no school on monday and tuesday..yayness! Can wake up early..wohoo..the FIESTA was great..get to meet some alumni's and enjoy selling stuffs with my class..the prata wasnt really a great sale..haha..but guess what?..my class won the most INNOVATIVE award..it was unexpected..wooho... (: there's nothing for me to talk about..bye..love ya! ;DDDDD muacks..crazyness! spastic!

-Dhammy!

13/2/07

Hey..it's been quite sometime since i update my blog..recently was kinda busy with school and band..this week will be kinda stress there's alot of homework and test to do. I really want to take my N level as soon as possible. I want to get good grades. Still thinking about where should i go after N levels?. Should i take music or ITE? Do you guys think tourism is a good course? It is a most wanted job nowdays. But i'm afraid that what if after i graduate it's not really "wanted" job?. So..kinda risky. A lot of stuffs in my mind right now..but don't think i should put it here. People will comment on some things. YAY! Philyouth was great. i enjoyed it. not bad..i get to play tenor..haha..bye khairul!. i wan to play tenor because there's only 1 score and 1 stand..huhu..
shall update again soon! ;D